Friends?

Hello everyone
This afternoon,I've been doing a lot of thinking.
I understand that some people may portray me as being an introvert.
I also get many questions asking me if I have any friends.
The truth is:
Yes,I have plenty of friends.
However, I only have a few close friends.
There is a difference between having friends and having close friends.
Having many friends is when you interact and get along with one another in a neutral manner.
Having close friends on the other hand, is when you lend each other a listening ear and tolerate all the rantings and the sharing of happiness with each other; standing by you and giving you as much support as much as you can.
By saying this,I am really honored to have all my close friends enter my life (you guys know who you are) and I'm also very blessed to have shared my genuine thoughts and feelings and letting them into the deeper and more solemn side of me at the same time.
From the bottom of my heart, Thank you guys, for everything.
Without you guys, I am nothing.
Don't get me wrong guys!
I am also very thankful for those people whom I've met in my life,regardless of whether they end up being a friend; an acquaintance or an enemy.
They are the ones who have molded me into who I am now and taught me many things which I should or should not do.
I know that I do not give my honest replies often when I'm told to speak up about my own opinions in front of others.
Its not easy for me to open up and it takes time for me to trust someone.
I have been extra cautious of my own well-being over the years and I always tell others what they like to hear, which is pretty dishonest in a way.
Perhaps that's a downfall on my part.
I'm also well aware of how extremely brutal I am in terms of someone betraying me.
We may continue to be friends over the years, but it is virtually impossible to win me over once my trust gets betrayed by someone.
The heart is fragile and gets broken in the blink of an eye.
I'm telling ya'll, its not a good feeling and its also a place where you won't want to be in.
I myself have gone through this particular phase of my life in the past and whenever I look back at it, I could not help but cry because I feel so alone sometimes and I remember the feeling when I get mocked at.
However, I am also happy that I've managed to get through this with the help of my loving family and those friends who have stood by me all these years.
We all have the opportunity to strengthen the bonds of our friendship and treasure this particular closeness.
Thus, it is really important that we be loyal to our fellow mates and not break their trust in any way possible.
I strongly believe that everyone has a good in them and that they should also give others time to get to know you better.
The key to having good friends is by being genuine and kind.
The people who I consider as my close friends are those whom I share my deepest and darkest confessions with and those who I share my uttermost happiness with.
With that, I thank everyone for coming into my life and I shall hence conclude here.
Goodbye
xx