Hi guys,
I have been observing my friends in school on a daily basis and how they react when things do not go their way.
In my honest opinion, i feel like slapping them for reminding me of how I acted back when i was in my early teens, yet i feel so fortunate to not be in whatever drama they have gotten themselves into.
I feel like what I have gone through during the times where I got bullied and made fun of has made me alot stronger as a person i feel like i am able to deal with such cases in a more professional manner.
I've become less hot tempered now and I have learnt how shutting up could make such a huge difference in a conflict. I've also learnt that it takes time to build up guts. In the past, i used to avenge people online with the assumption that I'll feel alot better. Instead,i felt worse as people would come ganging up on me. Now, if i feel like there's something wrong with one's attitude or whatnots, I will tell them straight in their face. And trust me when i say i feel way better by doing that. Many people today do not have the guts to be frank in front of their friends and they keep backstabbing them by picking at their flaws. That's not the way to go! If you want to criticise others, have the guts to say it in their face. By doing that they'll know that you want the better for them and when you ask them for opinions, they'll be honest with you.
Finally, i also learnt that there is always a time to be serious, and a time for fun. The problem about it is the inability to balance it out and use it to your advantage. For example, if you're such a nuisance during project work and when it comes to fun you don't joke around much, something is VERY wrong. It really shows your knowledge of differentiating what's important and what's not, and that in turn says alot about you as a being.
Though i feel like I've changed alot over the years, there are still some flaws in me which I'm trying very hard to change. One being my patience level. I admit I have been very impatient and my obsession with speed can be a bit of an issue. i kept whining at how slow my friends walk and at their actions and all, but I'm so used to doing things quickly because "Singapore is a very fast-paced society. If you're not fast you're bound to lose out".The good thing about it though, is that my sense of urgency is there.
I have to finish up my utterly disgusting pchem tutorial now, so i guess its goodbye for now!
xx
